Do you smell what I smell?

Ok... I know I become obsessed over a product easily but when its good its good.

One of my best friends started selling Gold Canyon Candles. I was skeptical at first because I was a faithful Bath and Body works candle girl. But, wanting to help support I decided to throw a candle party. OMG! I am so glad I did. They have over or just around 100 different scents and they are all incredible. I decided that I was going to give everyone in my family a candle for Christmas because I wanted everyone to share in the scented joy. They only problem was I ordered 3 for myself..... DON'T Judge me!!!! I am a huge homey scent person and they have so many options in this category. Until I receive my order I did get a candle for hosting a party and it is wonderful... even husband will light it. They coolest thing about it... and I know I am a dweeb for saying so but, they burn super clean. You know what I mean? There is nothing worse than getting a cool candle and it turns the glass votive black, or the wax starts to seep out of the gaping hole that has burned on the side on to my wooden coffee table... I am not bitter by any means. It burns so clean that when the candle is used up you can just pop the wicks out and you have a pretty snazzy glass holder.

I implore you my dear blogggies to find your local sales rep and let your nose guide you to some pretty awesome candles.

Have a great hump day everyone!!!

Tastefully Tuesday

I choose this recipe because I had some for lunch and got some on my shirt... but it was totally worth it.

This is a recipe for French Onion Soup. Probably one of the most amazing dishes known to man, ok, that isn't fact, just my opinion but common it is pretty tasty.

What you need:

4 onions, chopped
3 tablespoons butter
3 tablespoons all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon ground black pepper
1 teaspoon white sugar
3 (10.5 ounce) cans beef broth
1 1/4 cups water
1/2 teaspoon dried parsley
1/4 teaspoon dried thyme
1 cup white wine
1 French baguette, cut into 1/2 inch slices
8 ounces shredded mozzarella cheese

What to do:

In a large pot over medium heat, saute the onions in the butter or margarine for 10 minutes, or until onions are tender. Stir in the flour, ground black pepper and the sugar to form a pasty mixture.
Now add the beef broth, water, parsley and thyme and simmer for 10 minutes, Then add the wine and simmer for 10 more minutes.
Preheat oven to broil.
Fill individual oven safe bowls 3/4 full with the soup. Place a slice of bread on top of the soup and cover with the cheese. Place bowls in the oven.
Broil in the oven until the cheese is melted and bubbly

When all is said and done you have a savory, ooey gooey bowl of goodness. Enjoy ladies... and make sure you don't get any on your shirt.

My plea

This post is whiny at it's best... I promise a tasty Tuesday after this vent. I am sorry my blog has been lack luster and down lately but that has pretty much been the aura around me. I try to change it but the dark clouds have a hold of me. Hopefully I will get some sun shine soon.

This morning I hit my boiling point and I am tired:

I am tired of his blatant disregard of my requests, I am tired of having to always go back over what he has done, I am tired of being laughed at, I am tired of the disrespect, I am tired of the mess, I am tired of trying, I am tired of caring, I am tired of being alone, I am tired of my expectations not being met, I am tired of this feeling, I am tired of going to be by myself almost every night, I am tired of not being a team, I am tired of working against one another, I am tired of the excuses, I am tired of the "I'll get it later."

I will give kudos to him for doing the dishes yesterday, well as much as he could. But....

There is so much I want to say to him but I am tired of beating a dead horse. I get excuses like "Our thoughts on clean are totally different"" Why should I give up my weekend to clean," and my personal favorite... "It doesn't bother me." But, why do I feel like I am expected to? I mean is it because I don't pay a majority of the bills so you think I need to earn my keep? What is it? Please tell me. I mean its not like I don't contribute. I do contribute money wise, so why can't you contribute more home wise?

I have done the make a list thing, split the house hold chores until we both get in to a routine and I got laughed at. I thought it was a good idea because we both have never lived with the opposite sex and the species being completely different us an understatement. I have nagged, I have yelled, I have ignored. I am not saying he is totally at fault here. I mean I am a messy person, but, and I have told him this, once I get the place clean I do try to keep it that way. He is such a force to be reckoned with. He says I should give him a chance, so I ask him once and get the "I'll get it later" then 3 days pass and it is still not done. I mean how much of a chance do you need? I give you 3 days to do it and that in my book is 2 days to many. I mean I have really tried to make a change, you ask and I try to do. I felt like I was being a bad wife because the house was a mess, I was a mess. I was crying myself to sleep because I felt like a horrible wife, but I am starting to question if it is really just me.

100th Post

100 posts... wow!

Lets reminisce, shall we....

My first blog hit the Internet on December 13th. I got the idea from my bestest, and thought that this would probably be the best way to write about my wedding planning experience.

During said process I found 3, count em' 3 "The one dresses."

The first: The could have been...

Although beautiful, I was scared of it. I was scared of the poof and the glitz and I a smidge of me wished I would have had the balls to wear it. I watched so many bride shows and I wish I would have put my fears aside and let myself love something like this.

The Second: The mistake

This was an epic fail on my part. Still an amazing dress, but still epic fail!

The Third : The one!!!!!!

It was simple, elegant and made me look like a friggin rock star BABY!!!!

I went through many roller coasters in my planning. Ups being, Becoming Martha Stewart and DIYing over half of my wedding, Finally finding the dress, watching the days slowly dwindle down, the day itself was absolutely, positively the best day of my life, IT BEING OVER!!!

Some of the downs.... tradition, the phrase "That's how it's done." , feeling pressured to make others happy, being stretched to thin financially and all the other little things that kept popping up. But the good news is, I lived!!!!!

I also moved my Husband here to Ohio, and we started living together. Still trying to figure some stuff out on this one.... it is going to be an up hill battle for a long time still.

I revamped my blog.... well sort of. I said I wads going to do all these cool things and have yet to do it. I want to get better at my themed blogs I will start as soon as I get my wedding pics and can do those posts like I promised.

I blogged about some of the challenges of married life. Trying to find out who you are after becoming a Mrs. is hard. I am still lost!!!!! Some one give a GARMIN!!!!

I became a grown up and left cover girl behind. I started a love affair with Mary Kay. I love everything that I have gotten from their line and I will never look back.

I wrote about finding inspiration and Clarity and some has been found but still looking for answers.

I gave you glimpse of a new crafty side of myself with my fall decorations. More to come with Christmas right around the corner.

And finally what is to come of my blog. My first Thanksgiving with hubs , A move, School starting up, My first Christmas with hubs, and much, much more. Lot of Pictures too. I want to start taking a picture a day.... ok maybe a week in my case to break up all the font on this page.

Thank you to all of my lovely readers! I know you are out there and I hope you enjoy what is to come.

Things that you would only hear at my job.....

This is how my last phone conversation ended:

Dealer: I am having one of those confused days, I just need to clear my head a little. I think I am going to go ride my horse.
Me: That sounds like a good idea, it is gorgeous outside.
Dealer: No kidding, I need to get my horse trained so I can compete in barrel racing next season. I had to sit the last one out.
Me: Oh, why?
Dealer: I bought this amazing horse for a heck of a deal and was so excited to get her ready but a week after I bought her I cut my foot off with a chain saw and was laid up in bed for 2 months.
Me: Silent as my jaw fell open

That's right Ladies, he cut his foot off with a chainsaw. I am not sure if it was the whole foot, part of his foot or what, but still. That ranks right up there with one of my dealers that got his finger cut off by a belt and he didn't go to the emergency room because they were going to charge too much money. So, he did what anyone would do, take a stapler and stapled it back on.....

The dealers do keep my job interesting.

He's in the Army NOW

Yesterday was a very hard day for my family. My older brother finally swore in and shipped out to Basic Training, something he has been waiting for since April. That is just when all the paperwork started, he has really been working towards it for years now.

There were a lot of tears, mine were mostly for my sister in law. I am not worried about my brother, he is going to be fine. This is something he has wanted for a very long time and when he puts all of his energy in to something you can't stop him. My sister in law, knew this day was coming but you can try your damnedest to prepare your self for being alone but you still go in to shock when it finally comes. She broke down in the car and asked "what am I supposed to do without him?" She is scared, of being alone, loosing touch and going through her pregnancy with out her husband,She is almost 4 months along now.

I am really lost with the post. I guess that is all I am going to write for now, I mean I am still in disbelief that I said good bye to my brother yesterday and won't see or hear from him until Christmas. Please keep my family in your prayers. We need strength right now.

Have a good Thursday everyone.

Movin on up!

Lot's of fun and exciting things going on in the G house hold.

This weekend was my open house. It didn't go too badly and people came and bought stuff but it wasn't as big a turn out as I had hoped. The good news is I have Christmas pretty much done, every woman in my family is going to get one candle and a little something else. Well, the candle side of it is done and with some web surfing last night so are the rest of their gifts. The Dads aren't that hard to shop for but the brothers are. I have no earthly idea on what to get those three.... I am going to have to do some digging to see what they want.

My friend came and picked up the furniture I sold her, and in turn offered for us to use her trailer when we moved. Heck yeah!!!! We really didn't want to dish out that kind of money around Christmas time so I thanked her profusely. After we got everything loaded Hubs and I went to look at a potential apartment. It was a townhouse a little further outside of the main drag of town, which will be a little change of pace for us. We go and meet with Judy and she asks if we are aware of the specials and I told her what I was told and then she said also if you sign today I will give you a new washer and dryer for free. I mean give as it is ours forever and free as in the low low price of NADA!!!!! She left to go put my license in her desk and Hubs leans over and says " I don't care if I hate we are moving here." Much to my surprise, he loved it! So we turned in our application and paid our deposit and even got our unit. The couple that was in the office during all of this was turning in the keys to our place. We talked to them about living there and the unit itself and they said they loved it there and the only reason they are moving is because they bought a house. We drove by our new place and we are just really excited about living some place that is quite, clean and safe.

I am writing my letter of reentry to Bradford today. Hopefully they will take me back, Cross your fingers!!!!