192 days to go

And things are slowly getting back on track. Matt and I worked out our money woes and have a plan, which was severely needed. He has his second interview with a company who's name escapes me at the moment, so lets keep our fingers crossed that all goes well. He is getting really discouraged, and I don't blame him.

A quick wedding update....

As of today we can cross off the list:
-We have a pastor, his name is Eric Waters and he is from UALC.
-We put the deposit down on the flowers
-We have a meeting with Lisa at Pinnacle next Tuesday to work on food and the little details of the wedding.
-I have the cake details worked out
-I have a signed with a make up artist

The veil situation is still up for debate so I am asking for help.... vote at the bottom of the page on if I should wear a birdcage veil or not.

I am really excited for the upcoming months, when we really start checking things off the list. I am one of those people that don't like things to be up in the air, I want to get it done and put a big black x through it.

On the subject of lent ( I know I am jumping around here) I have decided to give up a vice that I have had for the greater part of my existence, biting my nails. It is an ugly habit and it only gets worse when I am stressed ( you should see my hands right now, it looks like they were mauled by a badger).

I will say that a challenge has been brought to the table and I think I am going to accept it. 101 things to accomplish in 1001 days. I am going to start making my list today, I had to try to think of some things to start out with.

That's all I got for now.

update.

Well the update isn't a good one.

Matthew lost his job. So he is back at square one and the money issue is back on the table. Hell it is the table.

I am sick. Very sick. I have a gnarly sinus infection that has been made worse by my stubbornness to not see a doctor and my home remedies. But! (Crystal you should be very happy) I went to see a doctor and now have the appropriate meds to get better.

Only 2 more weeks of school for me, that is exciting.

what we have to deal with now;

try to find a cheaper photographer


ok, I am going to go lay down.

Blue

I am getting married and I thought I had this under control but the stress has arrived and I see it looming. The dark clouds arrived yesterday at work. I talked to the photographer about changing the package we were originally interested in ($2500.00) to something cheaper and she is very sweet and willing to work with me. If we get her 25% of the of money by February 18th which would be $500.00 dollars. I can feel my shoulders cramping up and I immediately call Matt and tell him and he says he doesn't have it, which I already knew. I said why not take it out of the money my dad is giving me and then put it back in once we have it. He tells me he is worried because he doesn't know when we will have that kind of money. I am kind of dumb struck.

So then we get off the phone and I start to think about that conversation and previous ones that we have had and I start to get angry. He doesn't want to go in to debt with this wedding, yet he is the one the pushed for 9-6-09 when I said maybe we should wait until July of 2010 because I would be out of school and he would have been working for a year. No, No he said he didn't want to wait that long to marry me. And like a sap I melted and signed a contract for 9-6-09. I mean don't get me wrong I didn't want to wait either but at least I was trying to make it easier on us.

So we got in to this fight about where the money is going to come from. I told him we totally aren't on the same page because he really wants a honeymoon (which his parents are paying for) and I want the wedding. I think it is so dumb to spend that much money to go some place tropical (like he hasn't been going there at least once a year since he has been in high school) to lounge around and be together. I rather share one of the most important days in our relationship with our friends and family and Celebrate.

So I am at a loss. I don't what to do. I can't charge anything because I no longer have a credit card and I have to start paying back my loans. Cause oh yeah I am putting my dream on hold so the burden of paying for the wedding doesn't solely fall to him. I thought at this point in time school is a luxury that can be but on the back burner until the we are Mr. and Mrs. but he is afraid of bad credit score? Which is more important? We won't see eye to eye. How do I handle this one?