Life, or something like it.

Sorry for being so MIA and leaving on such a sour note.

I am not sure if I am back back yet, but I looked at my blog and it looked so sad, so I thought I would give a little bit of an update.

Life is getting back on track, Hubs and are talking more about what we hope the next 3-5 years will bring us, and what we can do to make it happen. I kind of did a wife fail by getting plastered the eve of birthday and telling someone how I really felt about moving. Which is, I really don't want to and the only reason I said I would was because I wanted to be a good wife. That really didn't go over well, considering that was the first Hubs ever heard other wise and the fact that he over heard the conversation made matters worse.


He confronted me with it while drunk dialing some friends and I could tell something was wrong and so I very hastily got off the phone and asked what was wrong and he said "You lied to me." that was all it took. I busted out drunk crying and did so on and off through out the night. It all came out, I took down my "I hate to cry" wall and every thing that had been on my mind came out. The truth about moving, that yes I am still willing to do it if he can find a suitable job but not just because, that I want to be here for our pregnancy so I can experience it with my family, that I don't feel like he gave Ohio a chance, that I am scared I will loose myself again, am afraid I will loose touch with my family and friends. So needless to say we brought in the wee hours of the morning with some real heavy conversation, that honestly needed to happen anyway. I guess I just needed a little liquid courage to do it.


Things that we decided:

We are going to stay in Ohio for at least 5 more years

We are going to try to be in a house by the end of next year

We are going to hold off on baby making for a while, like it is completely off the table.


We both think it is important to have a house first before a baby, ok maybe not important but it is something we both want to accomplish before baby makes 3.


We want an older home (like 1900-1940 construction), that needs a little updating. We really want to put our mark on a house and we want it to be original. We are also looking outside of the city and more in the country. I am pretty pumped. Nothing too rural but something with a big back yard and mature trees. We found a contender that had everything (except a 2nd bathroom) and I even went as far as to contact the realtor. I just want to get a feel for the area, make sure the drive in to the city isn't too bad and the neighborhood. We shall see what comes from it.

So life is getting better, I feel more relaxed knowing that we have a plan even if it is just spoken right now.

My Birthday was good, my party was a little lame (Mexican wrestling.... belch). I guess that is what you get when you let boys have the remote. But all and all it was a good time spent with friends.

Got see squeaker this weekend and he is getting so big. I mean I know he is only 3 months old but this kid is already scooting and rolling over. I think that was another reason I didn't want to move. I want to be around my ever growing family... I mean hubs is at kind of a stand still considering he is the only one that is married.

Gearing up for the in-law visit, they come next week. Excited but stressed about getting rid of all the furniture that needs to be gotten rid of, and the cleaning. I am so self conscience about the state of my house with my Mother in law but what wife, new or not, isn't?

There you have it. A little update on what is going on with me.

Hope to be back in the full swing of things soon.

Love!