This week has been a long hard week for me, emotionally and mentally draining.
I have begun a healing process that I hope in the end will leave me at peace with who I am and the demons that I have faced and that I am going to be battling my whole life.
My bestie gave be the best compliment last night, that I will carry with me always. She told me how strong I am. This coming from her, a talented, beautiful, strong woman herself, kinda meant the world to me. Right now I feel weak, and ashamed and I know it will pass, but the Revelation of Wednesday could leave even the most confidant person a little shell shocked and that is exactly how I felt. Like in the movies when I bomb goes off and the actor is all disoriented.
Some people can't believe how much I open up about these dark aspects of myself but I see it as my own brand of therapy and since I don't the most supportive family (some members excluded) I have to build my support group in other ways. Kitty (head doctor) has helped my tremendously but sometimes she can be a little unrealistic with things, but then again so can I. So I like my little piece of the world wide web to say things my way and try to work through them without a paid professional. I also see it as a form of awareness. Maybe if I write about something one of you is going through you will feel inspired to find the right way for your self..... or I don't know, I feel like I sound like Oprah.... not what I was striving for...
So, I want to thank everyone who reads this blog, it means a lot to me.
Now that I got that out there lets get on with the weekend plans.
Tonight I am staying in with Hubs and cleaning and relaxing. Tomorrow, my mom and I are going to make our way to Tipp City to see this squeaker!
I get 2 days with him, 2 days!!! I am so excited.
Well Lovelies, have a terrific weekend and remember to give your Mommas some love!
Enjoy that little tiny baby face!!
ReplyDeleteYou don't always see your courage. I have always admired your honesty in letting out the good, bad, and ugly.
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