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Welcome! My name is Mrs.G and I started this blog so people could share in my mis-adventures in wedding planning. I married my southern gentleman on September 6th, 2009. Throughout our courtship I became enamored with everything southern and desperately want to become a steel magnolia.
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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Lost it.

Ok, so I have ADD… big surprise right?

Anyway, I did the whole medication thing when I was first diagnosed but that shit messed me up. I wasn’t in control and I couldn’t think straight or form a sentence.
So needless to say I starting hiding my pills, in food, in my pocket, anywhere that meant I didn’t have to take it.
My mom pulled me off the meds in the second grade and turned to the school for help and they obliged. Instead of pills they made a plan that said I HAD to sit in the front of the class, I could get more time on tests, that I could use a calculator, and that I couldn’t take a test in a big group.
All of this worked wonders.  My teachers were always there to help and once that I saw it helped and it meant that I didn’t have to be hopped up on meds all the time I was all for it.
It took a lot of practice but I soon learned what I needed to do to stay on task, things like I had to be in a quiet, well lit area to do my work, it needed to be a big space so I could lay my paper out, I needed something to sooth nerves (I have a bad test anxiety that can sometimes flare up when I am overwhelmed) so I had to listen to music, but nothing with words.  I could only do one subject at a time and I tried to get as much done in school as possible. I wouldn’t let myself have breaks though because then the focus I had worked so hard to achieve would be broken.
It didn’t really fall in to place until high school, which was the first time I felt I was actually absorbing the material. It helped to that I could take classes that interested me as well as required courses.
Well, life got in the way and now I am back in school but I am incredibly out of practice when it comes to focusing.
For so long I would come home, make dinner, plop myself in front of the tv until bed.  Now, I am having problems getting off the couch and getting to that quite zone where I am retaining what I am reading or writing.
I think when we make the upstairs in to my office it will help, when I am not working full time and going to school full time it will help. I am just afraid that this quarter will suffer.  I am trying really hard but because of this lack of focus I am dragging. I haven’t been to bed before 1 am all week; the dark circles under my eyes are unspeakable. 
Does anyone have any tips on time management? I am in some serious need over here.


  1. I know EXACTLY what you're going through lady! I've been back in school for about 9 months and it's been a major lifestyle adjustment. I've had to compromise with myself. I say, "study for 2 hours and then you can watch whatever junk it is on TV that you just can't miss tonight". It's hard, and it doesn't always work, but it's gotten me through so far! Good luck!

  2. I am of no help since when I was in school I would wait till the last minute for everything. I hope you can your focus and succeed though