Clarity

So, lot of stuff has been discussed with hubs and the little light that I needed was shed!

I am doing this amazing bible study and last week we discussed living with out fear. Can you imagine it, what are you afraid of (think bigger than spiders and snakes, how does feeding into those fears take you farther and farther away from your path, you plan. Needless to say, it really spoke to me. I am a planner and if I could plan my whole life out I would, right here and right now. But, my near future was up in the air, and depending on someone else, scary!

Well, I decided to write down everything that had been eating away at me, lingering in my head, weighing heavy in my heart and it felt so good to see everything and get all my fears in order and bring it to the table with husband. I had my thoughts on a 2 year program vs. a 4 year, moving vs. staying, Bradford vs. JWU, the what could happen and outcomes of everything. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted from me and so husband and I talked about pros and cons of each and let it sit for awhile. Still, I was/still am a little restless because we still haven't said this is what is going to happen. He really doesn't want to be here for another winter, but he has no job prospects. I put apply for loans on hold because I didn't want to get all this money and have to go out there alone or have something fall through.

Then last nights study happened. Beth Moore talked about waiting, waiting for the right time. She said we are always on the edge of a major decision waiting for something. And I really I am. I want this decision, whatever it is to feel right, to feel good for my husband and I. Then she said, that sometimes you have to wait until someone elses right time. I thought about that too, maybe this isn't the right time for us to try to move, with everything my family is going to go through this upcoming year, maybe I am needed here, maybe he doesn't want Hubs to miss out on something here. Then I get the call....

The flooring specialist is leaving the store and coincidentally got a job in Charlotte. He said that he was going to refer hubs as the new specialist if he is interested, hubs said yes. So, basically husband has the chance to get a promotion, pay increase, and probably better hours. I got chills when he told me this, and looked up (in a comical way) and said " Ok, I got message." So Husband and I are going to finalize everything this weekend. Our lease is up and I really want out of our apartment. I mean it is an ok place but they are raising rent $100.00 and there have been 2 break ins the past week in my neck of the development. So needless to say when I am by myself at night I don't feel entirely safe. I will let you know what the DECISION 2009 will be.

This weekend= Christmas Decoration shopping (don't judge me they are on sale this weekend at kohls, plus it is friends and family), My brothers going away party, shopping for Hubs Birthday he is going to be the big 25!And as always cleaning. I am having a Gold Canyon Candle and Mary Kay open house next weekend which is going to be KICKIN!!!!

Did I mention I may become a Mary Kay Beauty Consultant! I am so Excited!!!!! Another thing for Hubs and I to make a final DECISION on.

I want everyone to have a fun filled weekend! Tootles!!!!