It is time...

To continue my quest for the healthy life!

The fire has been lit under my to big bottom and can I say that I am happy to feel that heat. When I started this journey I stated that my depression controls (as much as I wish it didn't) a huge part of my life and for the past few months it has been hard to keep my head above water.

But, I have seen the light at the end of the this tunnel and have a breathed the fresh air and I am ready to get back to it.

Something I realized too, in my own personal pit of despair, Do I really need to be a size 10 to be happy? My janky body image thing crept up again and I had it in my head that I had to be the skinnest I have ever been to be happy. The only issue was this is supposed to be about getting healthy right? Not a pant size. So I had to reanalyze my goals and how I am going to go about this.

When I did my confession I talked about my purging and that is another reason why I stopped my Healthy Life because it had become a sham. It was never enough, the work outs were never long enough, I never cut enough calories... it is a dark and twisty sprial. So how does one become healthy when you pine to look like the girls on the runway? The truth is I still don't have an answer for you yet. I am going to try my darnedest though.

Goals to focus on this time around:
1. Getting to a healthy BMI
2. Losing inches
3. Work on toning my muscles

My new goal weight will be anywhere between 150-160lbs. That will get me out of the "OMG you are going to die" BMI range and will get me comfortably on my way to "you are going to live a normal life with out Wilford Brimley saying Diabetus and it pertaining to me" BMI

I am going to invest in a few healthy recipe books, books like Eat, Shrink and Be Merry and Maybe a Volumetrics book. I will see what Half price books has in store for moi.